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Well, we made it! It's crazy to think we are now past the point at which Olivia, Madelyn and Mary Grace were born. It's crazy to know exactly what the baby inside me looks like. It's all just crazy. There are a lot of thoughts that have been swirling around my mind the past several weeks. I've felt sad for Olivia that her first months of life were so rough. I think back to those first few months of her life - all the poking and prodding, the machines and wires - and it breaks my heart that she didn't get to stay tucked away in my womb for longer. That's one of the things her doctors always told us in the NICU, no one has figured out how to recreate the womb. I had a lot of anxiety as we approached 22 weeks (the date my water broke with the girls). I've had nothing but great reports from my doctor, but it's really hard to try to reason or distract yourself from worry when you've lived through a worst case scenario. I have to make a conscious decision every single day to take things one day at a time. While I do have hard and fearful days I have to say that this pregnancy really has been bliss. I have felt such an overwhelming sense of thankfulness for a healthy pregnancy. Just the little things like going to the Arboretum on Saturday with my family and being able to comfortably walk around. Being able to chase Olivia around the house, play on the floor with her, or swim at the pool. Being able to ride to (and around) White Rock Lake on my new bike (thank you again to my sweet husband!). The list could go on and on, and I don't take a second of it for granted. So here's to three more months of pregnancy, Lord willing. Can't wait to see what making to full term is like!










Mary Brooke, we are already so beyond thankful for your little life! You are quite a feisty kicker like your big sister was and we can't wait to meet you in three months! Not too much longer, sweet girl!
Love,
Mommy


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  1. Mr. and Mrs. G!August 22, 2013 at 11:18 AM

    So glad to hear things are going well. Olivia is just too cute and will be a great big sister.

    Mrs. G

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  2. NewMomAugust 22, 2013 at 1:14 PM

    Our due dates must be almost the same! Mine is Dec 20th. I've been praying you! I'm getting more anxious by the week as we approach when my son was born prematurely. Hopefully we both both get to experience what it's like to bring a full term baby home : ) Congrats again.

    PS Olivia just keeps getting cuter!

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  3. BeckyAugust 26, 2013 at 8:56 AM

    Mare, I been following your journey for a while now as I was pregnant with quads the same time you were. I am so happy for your family that God has blessed you yet again. Olivia will be a wonderful big sister & looks perfect in every way :)

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